Anyway, not the point, let me get back to that... The point is this:
In the past year I have had no fewer than 25 friends announce pregnancies. I wish that were a gross exaggeration, but it's not. If anything, it's an underestimate. In the past 3 days, I've seen at least 5 new announcements, not to mention a phone call from a friend of Greasemonkey's saying that they'd actually just birthed a 3rd child that we didn't know they were expecting.
And all of it kind of hurts. I know, I don't have anything to complain about. I have several friends that, for whatever reason, aren't able to have children without medical intervention, or can't have children at all. I am so blessed to know that my body has the ability to get pregnant and carry a baby to full term. I am so blessed to have my sweet T-bone. And I'm so happy for all of my friends expecting children. This isn't to take away from their joy, not in the least. I know that many of them have waited a long time for the children they are expecting. I know that they will be wonderful parents and that they will love their babies with everything they have.
I know it's not our time yet, but it still hurts.

1 comments:
It's okay to grieve Selkie. I still do it all the time. Life is not fair, not even close. The year after we lost Clayton there were 7 babies born to our siblings, with a set of twins and a set of triplets in there. And here I am still without a baby and surrounded by babies everywhere I turn, I can't get away from it. I really do love my nieces and nephews and friends kids, but if I'm feeling especially sad one day I wont go to a family party or a baby shower. Because I care about myself and my feelings and I know my limits. It doesn't make me a bad person or mean that I'm a jealous bitter woman. I just take a day to be sad and move on. And hug my boy so tight and cuddle in his bed for a while because he is growing up so fast. Sorry this is so long... but I feel your pain with you Selkie, and it's okay to feel bad sometimes. And then go get a cherry limeaid cream slush from Sonic and listen to some Mumford and Sons for a while. :). Love you cute girl!
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